You haven't lost yourself.
You've just been waiting for a space worthy of the woman you're becoming.
You’ve found it.
Welcome to a world of remembering — created for women ready to stop abandoning themselves and begin inhabiting what they already know.
There are two ways in.
Two doors. One world.
The book is the map. I am the guide. The Remembering is where we walk it together.
You don’t need to read the book before entering The Remembering.
You don’t need to join The Remembering to begin with the book.
Both lead toward the same place — not a perfected self or a life beyond grief and difficulty, but a woman who knows the way home and keeps choosing to return.
Enter wherever something is calling you today.
The Midnight Carnival
A mythic spiritual memoir disguised as fiction.
A woman enters the Akashic realm and moves through a landscape of grief, memory, identity, creativity, and return.
Written from my own passage through the underground, this is a private doorway into the world of remembering.
Read it slowly. Let it find you.
A Tale of Remembering
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The Remembering
A living community and soul curriculum for women ready to stop abandoning themselves.
This is where the Carnival’s medicine becomes practice.
Where insight becomes something you inhabit. Where you stop being the woman who knows the work and become the woman who lives it.
A growing world of teachings, creative inquiry, lived practices, community, and live connection.
Discover the curriculum, community, live experiences, and ways to enter.
This was born from grief.
In September 2021, my parents died seven days apart.
What followed was not only loss. It was a fracturing of time, identity, memory, creativity, and the version of myself I thought I knew.
Years of training in Expressive Arts Therapy, Human Design, the Akashic Records, Soul Shamanism, Soul Art and Yoga Nidra gave me language for what was happening.
But grief itself cracked me open wide enough to live what I had spent years learning and teaching.
One question remained:
Now that you remember, how will you show up?
The Midnight Carnival and The Remembering were born from that question.
You already know there is more.
Perhaps you have studied the frameworks, sat in ceremony, done the healing, or held space for others.
Perhaps you have simply spent years trying to understand yourself.
And still, somewhere between the knowing and the living, there is a part of you not yet fully inhabited.
You don’t need another system for becoming yourself.
You need a world spacious enough to meet the woman who is already here.
A world built by someone who is walking it with you.
This is for you if —
You are already walking the path and are ready to stop walking it alone.
You’ve done the work and know the difference between information and transformation.
Grief, change, creativity, or longing has opened a door in you that you have not quite known how to walk through.
You want depth, not more information.
You want to be witnessed, not fixed.
You want a space that matches the size of who you actually are.
You are in the right place.
From the women who have entered the world —
"There is something sacred in the way Jocelyn speaks — like she's holding open a door I forgot existed. I return to myself each time I listen."
"Jocelyn's words stir something ancient and true within me. I feel seen, softened, and invited to come home to myself."
“Jocelyn’s guidance was clear, focused, and deeply compassionate. The space she created invited both structure and freedom. I left feeling nourished, reconnected, and creatively alive.”
I’m Jocelyn Bates.
I am a writer, artist, teacher, and guide working at the intersection of grief, creativity, nervous-system awareness, spiritual inquiry, and remembering.
After my parents died seven days apart, everything I thought I understood about healing had to become lived experience.
The Midnight Carnival is what emerged from the underground.
The Remembering is the living world that continues to emerge from it.
Where are you being called?
Begin privately
Enter through story, symbol, art, and the mythic imagination.
Enter the living world
Step into the curriculum, community, practices, and ongoing conversation.
There’s no correct order. Enter through the door that’s open today.
The door has always been open.You only need to enter.